some part of me could be really hoping that u can stop me from carrying on all these nonsense..

i know u wont.. u wont even want to bear such responsibility

but i'm really thinking.. how long it will take until the day i truly given up on everything and go in peace....

U and The World

If i were given a decision to make a choice in between u and the world..

i would like to choose u over the world at anytime.. it is never a big deal to give up everything for u

but...

i think.. a kind-hearted u would not like me to give up the world.... or give up anyone else just for u...

so... i made a decision to sacrifice u and continue loving others... it is the best way to prove that.. everything i done is just for u....


sorry.. lately i have been doing very mean things to u... it probably feels like as if i was shouting over the sms.... u probably would think that i'm crazy or retarded...
i'm sorry... i am really lost...i dunno wad i can do and i dunno wad i should do...

u know... i think u r really fortunate.. leaving aside the fact that u might have ppl arnd u to share ur troubles with... there are also ppl like me who look up to u when they are unhappy... i really hope ppl can look up for me when they r unhappy.. at least dat shows that they trusted me... and i am always ready to help.. just that, i'm not sure.. why i am doing so badly to get ppl to believe in me